Reminder to be Grateful

Honestly, I didn't know what to write. Nothing much happened... It's a period of waiting I would say. Waiting for the completion of our house renovation, waiting to go back to JB and Indonesia to celebrate MIL's birthday and my best friend's wedding, waiting for my sister's graduation in Nov, waiting for the right moment to get pregnant LOL....

Seriously, i think nobody likes to get pregnant as much as me. But well, it's not time to talk about this.

Back to the main topic, it's time to remember some people that have really love me for who I am, OR the people that have really make my life simpler, easier and more enjoyable. As I've said, it's a period of waiting, nothing much happened, so.. I guess it's important to remind myself of the good things that I have always had.

First of all, Auntie Linda.

Yes... She is like an angel to me HAHA... She has always offered to look after Keira on Saturday afternoon when Keith and I need to go to the church. She's such a great helper. Few times, we drop Keira in her house during her off-days when we need to buy groceries, watch movie, run some errand or anything at all. Seeing Keira stick to her assures me that she loves her just like how I love her (or maybe just a little lesser :P).

My parents.

Yeah... they always told me Keira is too skinny, I need to eat vitamins, dont wear high heels... Sometimes they are still a bit naggy BUT it doesn't matter. If it's not because of them, I think I will be struggling emotionally and financially.

My sisters and Chintia.

You know, the type of friends where you can just be who you are, or say anything... when you are together, you don't have to make sure they are OK, or to make sure they wont be bored, etc etc... My dearest sisters that I will forever cherish.

My brother.

Even if he is in KL, and I need someone to send me to somewhere, he will come. If I haven't had my dinner, he will tapao for me.

Gillian.

She listened to my complaints many times :P and most of Keira's clothes are from her (You want me to take care of Khye Khye?, I can quit my job and do it just for you LOL...)

Lastly but importantly, my hubby and Keira.

Ahhh.... life is just more beautiful when they are around. Enough to say.

Of course there are still many kind, nice, great and wonderful people that I know... but these are the people that have directly & personally add beautiful colors in my life.

I thank God for all of you.

SJMC at 3.30am

Keira had cough AGAIN yesterday!!! She was still happy and bubbly the whole day even until before she slept last night. We were singing together, playing and laughing (yeah just the two of us and I loved those moments, even though it would be even better if papa was around). Then at night, she suddenly coughed and vomitted, few hours after that, about 3am to be exact, she coughed and vomited again... and that time I realized she had a fever, high fever.

So i sponged her forehead, changed short sleeve for her... measured her temp... and it was 40 deg. It got me very worried. I sponged her until she got irritated and cried. Offered her water, after drinking, she vomitted again.

So wihout further thought, I brought her to SJMC at 3.30am. The nurse gave her a medication thru her buttock and doc gave her some oral meds. That time, her fever had subsided to 38.8 deg.

After reaching home, I sponged her about 4 times, and the temp went down to below 38 deg. Thank God my mom was with me, or else I dont know how to manage, cos it was raining when I brought her out.

Pray that she will sleep well tonight and the fever wont come back.

Oh yeah, i asked the doc why she got flu and cough so easily. The doc said she just had a sensitive nose. Nothing much can be done. :(

I was about to change her pediatrician. But then I searched from the internet, many people gave good comments about this ped. So ... errr... I need to consider about it again. If you know any good ped, please let me know!

Updates about LIFE

1. Keira is able to communicate well nowadays. Here's a lil update about her:

- when i lie down on her pillow, she said "excuse me mommy" (then adjust her pillow) and then "ok.. mommy sleep sleep"

- she always says things like "go away!", "eeeeee... (or yucksssss)... dirtttyyyyy......", "mommy... do..." "mommy sit sit..." "mommy play" "mommy dance" "mommy eat" "mommy jump" "mommy sing" "mommy let's go" "mommy open door" "mommy sleep" "mommy pleaseeeeeeeee" "mommy take" "mommy put back" "mommy NOOO" "mommy come" "mommy quick quick" "mommy NAUGHTY" "mommy, cannot open" (when she's struggling to open something), etc.....

- she still lovessssss to sing

- she is learning to eat with spoon, and she did quite well for the first 2 times :)

- she loves to watch "cloudy with a chance of meatballs" and she has been watching it for at least 4x now.

- she loves to go to Auntie Linda's house cos she is looking after another 2 babies, and Keira loves them :)

- when she saw Andrew, she asked "Wendy where?", when saw her Jiu Jiu "Pek Ee where?", saw poh poh "kong kong where?"

- she loves drawing & playing with stickers too.

-whenever i let her wear any accessories, she will say "picture picture". Basically she wants me to take her pictures!!!

- she used to pull out all her DVDs, nowadays she put them back :)

- she likes to see birds ... oh and cats... and dogs.. ^^

2. Can't wait to move to our new house. I'm excited to just imagine living there... woohoo....

3. Auntie Flora, Auntie Tina and Nathan just came to visit together with Mama. I love them. Bought Samantha & Joshua mini J.co Donuts :)

4. I have been losing my keys, pens or else misplacing my bible, phone, etc... sO i'm determined to make things better. Bought a bible cover that i can put my bible, notebook, pen, offering envelope and other stuff that I need every weekend. Going to buy a small pouch to put all my keys too!

5. Keith is in the US now. He spent his 31st birthday there, well.. gonna have late celebration with him for sure :) I thank God for him everyday!

6, Keira is having cough and flu again. Am gonna buy some herbs and boil for her tomorrow. It's some chinese meds recommended by Ms. Chew, my vocal teacher.

7. I can't wait to have my 2nd child, but.... it's not an ideal time. Will probably have him/her in 2012. I have already chosen names :D

I think that's all for now...

Cheers!

Back From UK

After spending 2 weeks in UK, I couldn't wait to come back to Msia... even though England and Scotland are really very beautiful and nice countries.

Keira was with my mom and dad for 3 weeks. Surprisingly, she didn't cry at all. Didn't even look for us when she was there. My dad and mom, of course, had spoiled her. Gave her whatever she wanted. But at the same time, they potty trained her :D and fed her proper food at proper time, and she ate quite a lot there.

I reached Msia on 24th June, I flew back to Medan on 25th to fetch her. WHen I reached home, she was taking her nap. I think she was still very blur when she woke up, she didn't want me to carry her, but 5 mins after that, she sticked to me like a glue!!! And since then, she is still sticky until today...

So far, the trip was great... loved the buildings, the mountains, the lake, the transportation system, and the english accent! but miss Keira, malaysian food and CHC!

You can check some of the photos from my facebook...

Other than that, we have moved to our new office... hmmm I like the offices, but not my office!! HAHA... cos everyone in the room was busy with works and noone arranged the room nicely. So i think it's my job to make the office nice, comfortable and make you want to work! HEHE...

Cheers!

Out of Control

Keira has been having flu and cough for more than 2 weeks.

It was 11.30pm and she was sleepy, but she insisted that she wanted to watch youtube while I was busy getting an important thing done. So I used my affirmative voice and said "NO!" So she started to cry, and then cough. She noticed I gave a bit of attention when she coughed, so she decided to force herself to cough even more and at the end she vomited. The worse thing was this: she vomited on my blackberry (which I was using to chat with Keith to get the important things done) and she vomited on the bedsheet I just changed 2 days ago... So I got very upset, I scolded her, I even bit her hand, and she cried even louder and this time she vomited again... i had to change her PJ and then... she cried and cried.

Soon after that, she fell asleep on her own. Now watching her sleep, I feel very sad. Her eyes are swollen and red. She is so tired, she didn't even move when I talk to her. Usually she is a light sleeper, meaning she wakes up very easily whenever there's a sound, even if it's just a soft one.

I mean, she is already not feeling well. Why couldn't I show her care when she vomited? Afterall, it's her bedtime, why did I bring my laptop into the room?

I hope she will never doubt that mommy loves her very much, just that mommy is also imperfect and has her own weaknesses and one of them is quick tempered and lack of self control :(

Keira, mommy is sorry and I love you very much.

Motherhood - The Voice Within

I watch this movie "Motherhood" first thing I woke up on Monday. Well, it's my off day.

After watching it, I think I should be grateful that I have a job but somehow I still want to be a housewife. Or maybe I should say I want to have a part time or a home based job, at the same time I can spend much time with my daughter (and children in the future). Maybe Keith is right, I grew up in a place where moms stay at home, so that's why.

Sometimes, I'm wondering what would it be if I'm working in an office. You know, a real office. After graduating, I have never worked in an office, it has always been in a store; namely boutique and bookstore.

How come?

Then, if I think back again, why had I chosen business instead of engineering course? I had always been a science student, I loved math and physics, yes I really DO love physics.

I envy ambitious people, I envy those that have found their "dream jobs".
Well, I am not saying my job is miserable now, well yeah a bit... but again just like what Larry Winget says "your success is your own damn fault". So even if I don't love the job, I have to do my best (and I do realize I haven't given my best).

WELL, my whole point is... I do once in a while think back of "what would have happened if..." , "how i wish i have..." , or "how good will it be if..." but then reality hits me. so yeah, GET A LIFE! My life is good. God has given me great things in life. I have a wonderful family, loving husband and adorable daughter. I belong to a great church. I have a good boss and lovely friends & colleagues. I live in a decent house. So yeah this is reality. Get back to WORK and do whatever I need to do.

Cheers,
JJ

Flu Again

Keira is down with flu again yesterday... a mild fever in the late afternoon, but it subsided at night...she couldn't sleep well cos she could hardly breathe properly... have to rock her to sleep. she whined a lot too :( poor child!

But she was happy again this morning... ^___^

Life Updates

Needless to say, it has been so long since I last blogged. Honestly, i felt lazy to continue it. But as read back my past blogs, it reminded me on so many precious moments and things that i wont want to forget.

So here I am again! :D

We are now planning to sell our current house so that we can move to a bigger house. We are staying in 4th floor, and there is no lift in our apartment. So... basically I carry Keira up and down everyday + I have to carry my bag and sometimes Keira's diaper bag if Keith has to go home later than me. Oh i haven't included my laptop yet! oh and the high heels that I always wear. :P

I have always loved landed house! We are aiming for SS16, SS17, SS18 or SS19, even though I also like Setia Alam. So yeah, if you know any "move in condition" unit, please let me know yeah!

As for Keira ler, she has been more and more funny nowadays. One night, she woke up at the middle of the night, we were all sleeping, and she got up, poked Keith's face and said "Papa.... Caaaahhh!" and then continued to sleep instantly!!! She was soooo playful and i think she was half awake only.

She is quite quick tempered and stubborn and selfish and cheeky and naughty and... you name it! well it's very common for 18months active creature i guess. she wants means.... SHE WANTS! She wouldn't let us watch our TV channel, she just wanted her cartoon or veggietales! but yeah I won't give in! Gotta train her man!

She loves to eat rice with soup too! :)

Nowadays she likes to sing "Liang Ji Lau Hu", "Satu-satu", "Cicak-cicak", "whose afraid of that big bad wolf", "I love you", "Potong bebek angsa" LOL... I think those are her latest fav songs!

In less than 2 months, I'll be off to UK and Paris, definitely will miss her very much.

Oh ya, I just bought 3 books: Larry Winget's The Idiot Factor & It's called Work for a reason (cos i think i really need to love my job and buck up!!!!) and also Find your strongest life by Marcus Buckingham. It's international bestseller, so I couldn't resist!

Alright, that's all for now...
Ciaoooooo....

Excited for 2010 - More to Come

Wahhh...

It has been so long since I last blogged about myself... It has always been updates about Keira & Keira & Keira!

She is super cute nowadays... oh wait... I'm supposed to write something else...

Ya you can read from the title.. I'm excited for what's coming...

First of all, Jilly is coming back to Malaysia for a month!!! YAY.... :) Can't wait to see you Jill .. and Thea of course! LOL I'm gonna bribe her with food, i hope it will work...oh I mean I'm gonna bribe Thea, not Jilly.

Keith has graduated from his course and he is gonna get his Master of Theology! and guess what, the ceremony will be in London!!! Soooooooooo London here I come!!!!

UK is my dream country. The Big Ben is in my top list of places to visit! Of course we will take a train to drop by Paris. Heny told me it' s a place every woman lovessss... so I wanna go and see if she's right LOL! >.<

Oh man, my heart is beating fast even when I'm typing this. I'm sooo excited.

Other than that, one of my best friends is getting married in October. She got attached like 9 or 10 years ago with the same guy, and the day they got attached was on my birthday. And this year, they are getting married on Oct 7, which is the date where I got attached with Keith. Wuahhhh..... Hahaha... see... we are so best friends :P

Another good friend of mine is going to give birth to her first baby! oh man... am I excited or what?

I told you before, i love weddings, preggers and newborn babies... oh now I wanna add.. I love travelling too :P

Another thing that i'm so happy about... I made new friends last week.. 4 of them - Audrey, Angeline, Lawrence & CP! They are fun people! Can't wait to know them more... also, I met up with June, my ex-classmate in CIMP. We hadn't met each other for 5 years! I really cherish the friendship!

Hmmm... OK, I can't remember what else I wanna write. I continue my work first, I'll come back to this later. *he he he*

Life is good!

Keira - 15 Months

Keira learned alot of new things in indonesia...

She can do the actions for the songs Xiao Zhu Xiao Zhu (Little Piggy), Cicak Cicak Di Dinding (Lizard on the wall), and Yang Wa Wa (Little Doll). Whenever she saw my mom, she would sing and asked my mom to sing along with her, cos it was my mom who taught her all these songs.

She can say few more words like "Come..." while waving her hand, "Pai Pai Shou" and clap her hands, "Take" to pick something up from the floor, "Pain pain" when she falls down or knocks herself, oh she can say "knock knock" too....

Another word that we use in Indonesia to say "fall down" is "pak pom" hahaha... she said that too... and "Pha Pha" means she is scared, while patting her chest.

Hmm have i missed out anything?

at this age, she communicates quite a lot to me... She can respond to me with yes - nod her head, and no - with word and shake her head. Sometimes she stares at me in a very close distance and mumbles... as if she is talking something I can understand =.=" but I really enjoy it..

She copies what we say also... like "how?" "aiyoooooo" or any word that we drag ... ie. see first loorrr... she will say "@)#)@#* loorrrrr...."

She can differentiate my phone and Keith's one even though they look quite similar... Blackberry Bold and Blackberry Javelin. She passes us our phone and spectacles whenever we leave them unattended...

I'm giving her vitamins now, and it's very good... it increases her appetite. I hope she will fall sick much lesser after consuming this vitamins...

She likes to take our phone, turn it another way and say "one two.. three" as if she is taking her own pic... how cute is that?

Random Pics - Chinese New Year 2010

Some random pics we took during the holiday:

Hellooooo

Hello...

I just came back from my hometown, Siantar 2 days ago... It's such a long holiday, went back to Johor for a week and then to Indonesia another week... I can imagine how busy I will be next Tues when I go back to work...

Keira enjoyed herself so much during the holiday, esp when we went back to Siantar. You know, it's my parent's first grandchild so you know how much they spoiled her :P

She sticked to my dad, mom and bro like a glue! Every night we would all gathered in my dad's room and they would play with her. It was so much fun! The only thing that wasn't fun was the mosquitos that sucked my child's blood like none's business. GGrrrr.....!!

I miss those moments d... >.<

The 4 of us (me, my bro and my 2 sis) bought our parents Blackberry Bold. Now our whole family can communicate thru BBM :) I'm glad that we finally can buy something practical and kinda expensive for them. Hehehehe... How i wish we can buy them a house in Msia!

Anyway, now that I'm back in KL, i think it's time to focus more on work! It's time to be busy and grow the church and Attributes HAHA...

Ciaoooooo~

Chinese New Year

Finally chinese new year is around the corner.

still remember last year we brought Keira back to JB and Medan. The journey was quite tiring cos she was still very young that time and she got tired after a long journey. This time round, i dont know what to expect since she can walk already, she might not want to sit for 3.5 hours.

We are going back to JB in a while, stayed that for 6 days and then go to Medan for another 4 days. I can't wait to bring her back to play with all the cousins and with grandma & grandpa. :)

Usually, during CNY i'm excited to buy new clothes for myself. but this time round, i'm busy buying for Keira... the joy of motherhood! Oh btw, most of her new clothes are in pink =.="

Well... have a great CNY break everyone!

Gong xi fa chai!!!

My 14 Months Daughter

at 14 months:

1. keira walks around the house happily...

2. she can say a few new words like "one two three", when i say "i love..." she says "youuuuu"

3. she imitates eitan to do astroboy by raising one of her hand and say "booyyyy"

4. she can show you an angry face when you ask her to... very cute!

5. she refuses to eat a proper meal, all she wants is her cheese biscuit!!! yeah welcome to "real" parenthood!

6. oh she loves cucumber too... :D

7. she has a magic blanket that can cause her to be sleepy haha.. in other words, she falls asleep easily when she is holding her blanket

8. last time, whenever she wants to drink milk, the following happens:

keira: nenen aaah....

mom: you want to drink nenen?

keira: *nod her head eagerly*

mom: ok, you wait wait ah...

my baby is quite impatient, so she wants to cut everything short... so nowadays, this is what happens:

keira: nenen ahhhh... *nod head*, *point finger* wait wait!

mom: errr.. ok!

ahahahha it's much faster isnt it? :P

9. whenever she sees my phone, she will say "poh poh" means... call grandma :) such a sweet girl...

10. she has her own words for water, biscuit, blanket, handphone...

11. she can sing one line of elmo song "lalala... lalalala...."

12. she sing the last word of every line of "twinkle twinkle little star"

13. she likes eitan... she calls him taytay...

14. she hits people when she is unhappy... Cindy is the no.1 victim!!!! poor Cindy...

thats all for now :)

here's the video of keira walking, talking and singing!

That One Particular Ambition...

If I honestly ask myself, what have ever crossed my mind when it comes to dreams and ambitions?Well, I have been changing my "dreams" for so many times. Sometimes, I thought I wanted to be a homemaker, sometimes... I thought maybe I liked to sing, the other time, I thought I wanted to own a business, some other times, I thought I just wanted to support my hubby in whatever he wanted to do...

But yesterday before I slept, something came across my mind, something that had consistently excited me. I was imagining myself looking after babies and talking to pregnant mommies and I dont know why, out of the blue... I checked my friendster account (I think i have never heard of friendster for almost a year) and in my profile I wrote I wanted to have a day care centre.

And that was exactly what I wanted to do when I finished my pre-U. But because my parents didn't allow me to study in Montessori, I forgot about it.

When it comes to helping pregnant mommies or mommies with babies, I am full of passion!

Aiks OK, Keira is bugging me now... got to go....

[to be continued]

Hanoi Trip

I just came back from the staff retreat in Hanoi... At first, I imagined about the beach or at least a place like Taiwan... but surprisingly it's almost like Medan T.T just that the weather was cold...

The traffic was crazy, there was no one way street i guess. the motorbikes and cars came from all directions. People were walking on the street in the midsts of the bikes, it was scarier than Medan.

This is the furthest trip Keira had ever been so far. She enjoyed the weather, she loved cold weather. I loved bringing her around too... she was such an angel when we were on the plane to Hanoi, but when we travelled back, she was so restless and she wanted to play with Eitan all the time!

In the whole trip, she refused to sleep. She wanted to go out. She loved to play with Tan Tan.. She called him Tay Tay... and Tan Tan will say "No.. it's Tan Tan! not Tay Tay!" LOL... I took the opportunity to let Keira wear the bee and ladybug costumes that I bought in Taiwan last Dec.

It would be the last time Keira wore the bee costume, cos it was a lil bit too small d...

It's a good year to start with :) Now it's time to work hard before Chinese New Year comes.

2nd trip without Keira - KOREA

this is my last day in korea...

it's a great experience. first time in korea. first time in a snowy country. first time being defeated by weather. first time waking up at 3.30am to attend morning prayer meeting.

... the snow that covered the branches of the trees..... snow on the xmas tree.... snow on the streets... and on the rooftop... snow falling from the sky... oh i so love the view... and btw it was snowing so heavily when we landed. it has never snowed like this in korea in at least 100 years.

the main purpose of this trip is to visit yoido full gospel church. we attended their morning prayer meeting, mid-week service, and we are supposed to visit few places like their tv station, the hansei university etc... but i only managed to visit the prayer mountain. the reason is... sigh... i'm sick throughout the trip! i had terrible flu one day before flying to korea. and it got worse here cos of the weather.

it's so amazing how the members of the church love to pray. they can spend hours to just pray! personally, i know i have to buck up! it's a wonderful thing that i've seen with my own eyes. the weather is about -10 to -16 degree in the morning, but the hall is packed with people. oh btw, the hall has the capacity of thousands of ppl.

i got nosebleed the night after i came back from the prayer mountain, it was so bad, there was blood all over the bed sheet. scary. so... i stayed in the room most of the time during 2nd and 3rd day.

i still wanna come back here, probably during autumn or spring? do you know that my dream is to go to UK and see the Big Ben! anyway, i wish i can say next week i'm going to UK but... next week we'll be flying to Hanoi for staff retreat (hanoi is also a good place la hor?). this time round i'll bring keira along, hopefully she wont be fussy during the flight...

alright! i think it's time to say good night, we'll leave to airport at 8am tomorrow. bye bye Korea!!